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Sunday, February 3rd, 2008
1:20 am	Could It Be, An Entry??? Wow... well a new record. I haven't posted since November of 2006! I went over a year this time, but I suppose being off only a few months is still pretty close to a yearly update. Who knows if the trend will continue, but for now it seems it is. I guess it just so happens that about once a year I end up at a livejournal page on someone else for one reason or another, which usually leads me to logging in and checking up on my own account. This thus leads to a posting and thus the yearly update is born! So let's see. Following the time around my post I did continue to feel pretty good - until December when I landed back in the hospital for a few days with another "mysterious" bladder infection. I continued to feel not quite right and got a bit worse and worse as the next few months came and went. Finally it got to the point where I couldn't leave the house, didn't even leave my second floor, and barely got up off the sofa to go to the bathroom. Yes I got very sick and ended up, of course, in the hospital in May. Immediately back on dialysis I went and the doctors were quick to blame my kidney. It wasn't until June (and 5 straight admissions later) that they finally realized I had a rare bacterial infection called MAI. It'something people are constantly exposed to, but don't get sick from, unless then have weakened immune systems, which I did because I was on anti-rejection medication for my transplant. So I've been back on dialysis ever since because my weakened kidney transplant was no match for this infection, which brought me to the point of such illness that I could barely move or function. I was in the hospital for almost two months. I got out at the end of June and had to stay with my parents' until the end of September because I was still very, very sick. I came home to Philly and to Dan, who I barely got to see it seemed, but was still rather ill and recovering until a month or two ago now when I finally started feeling better and felt I actually returned to this world mentally. It was a long ride and not one I hope to ever ride again. I started an art gallery and shop called Amble Gallery & Books (www.amblegallery.com) with my best friend Concetta. It's an idea we'd been forming for years, but we finally made it official in April and opened our doors with our first show in October. We've been going along since then and it's going pretty well. It's certainly fun and I hope we'll be able to continue it for a good time to come. I still have Metatative LLC. I don't really do much web or graphic design. I was doing a couple jobs this time last year but this time last year is when I really started getting really sick, so I had to stop that as well. Now I want to focus my extra time (as always, what's that?) on my own projects, getting back into school (I basically had to take a year off my grad project because of the illness), and getting life back in order. So that's where I'm at. Hope you enjoyed the update. Until next time! :o) Current Mood: happy Current Music: Big O on TV (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 6th, 2006
4:34 pm	My Yearly Update So here we are again, almost exactly a year since the last time I happened upon my good old livejournal for a bit of an update. So, without further delay: Health: Right now it's really good and I believe and ambrace this to be because of my learning of my own ability to help heal myself and keep myself healthy despite all that surrounds and threates to take away at times. In Feb/March the doctors thought my kidney (transplant) had failed for good. It was semi sudden and I had gotten really sick - and they put me back on dialysis and that seemed to be that. But some things didn't fall into place. I got more sick on the dialysis machine than off. My test levels didn't match up how they should really and I kept getting terrible chills when on the machine that they couldn't explain with a virus. So I happened to get a doctor (my current dr and also who was new at the time) to run some tests to check the function of my kidney and low and behold, it showed I didn't need dialysis anymore afterall. It's REALLY rare for someone to get on and get off any other way than getting a transplant. Sometimes function fluates... but not so much. So in July one day of trying to skip my next session (as I was told to do) turned into me never having to go back on again and here we are today! 4 months free and my levels even got better as time passed with time off from the machine. They can't really explain it and I only sort of can, but I'm not going to question such a good thing to happen. Now: Love - Dan and I did get married on June 24th, 2006. The wedding went great - it really was the perfect day and even things that tried to mess with it (like the rain) subsided long enough for us to hold the wedding ourdoors as we really wanted. Sometimes the will of the bride is stronger than you realize I guess! ;) So we are pretty happy right now. Work - I registered my own company Metatative LLC (www.metatative.com) at the end of October 2005, so it's now officially over a year old and just now really starting to pick up because I've been able to get it moving again. I'm still working for the main real estate company that I always have... but now they are my 'main client' and I do have others. I hope to really keep this moving forward. With the way my health was so uncertain it really did work out well to havthis work out the way that it did. Dan is currently unemployyed and searching. He lost his job in March right when I got sick and got a job just after our wedding around the time I was getting better, but unfortuantly a few weeks ago he was back to job searching once again. Hopefully all that will work itself out soon though. So there it is, my yearly update. I still write most things at digitalreflex.net which if you are reading this journal for some reason you really should be going there if you actually want to know what is going on with me. I don't write there ALL the time, but I definitely write more often than once a year!!! ;) Well than that's it... until next year - or will I really make you wait that log??? We'll see! :) Current Mood: tired Current Music: None I'm at Work (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 1st, 2005
10:58 pm	City Search Huh... I don't really agree and I'm NOT going South... American Cities That Best Fit You: 60% Atlanta 60% Miami 55% Austin 55% Honolulu 55% Las Vegas Which American Cities Best Fit You? (Comment on this)
Monday, October 17th, 2005
10:40 am	Been A Long Time Coming So... obviously I don't use this livejournal anymore. But every once in awhile, it's existence will come up and therefore I seem to become compelled to happen back here to see what's been going on, or rather, to look back on my own life semi-so long ago. I was very different then I think, but maybe not I don't know. To keep it short and sweet I think I'll play off my last update: I'm still going strong, though health issues are never an easy nor standard path. Its had its ups and downs, but I'm going ok right now. Dan and I got engaged back on April 1st. We are quite happy and just recently finalized our date to be June 24th, 2006. So yes, 3 years (almost) exactly since we got back together we'll be tieing the knot. Oh yes aren't we cute..? I'm stilling working at the same real estate company, though that's changed quite a bit too in a lot of ways. I'm not an independent consultant for them, even though I do the same exact job (and then some) and work full time (if not more) hours each week. The difference is now instead of paying me salary and covering all my benefits, they pay me hourly and don't pay anything for my benefits (I pay them instead almost $600 a month just to keep them), and I also don't get any paid time off. This took place because I started a grad program that for most of the year is independent study (allowing me full time to devote to going to work too) but my company couldn't let me have 3 weeks of unpaid leave as an employee, so the status change made the 'most sense'. It's fine though. I can take days off when I want/need to and don't have to worry about it. Yeah, it hurts my pockets, but I have to deal with that for now. Otherwise, things are just going pretty good. Nothing much else has changed I suppose, though actually I'm sure lots has but it's been too long to cover it all. So, until the next far distant time I come to visit... so long! :) Current Mood: amused Current Music: No music I'm at work (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
2:03 am	Pretty Dead On For Me I am Progressive Girl Click on the picture below to read more: Take the 'What Kind of Girl Are You?' quiz at CookingToHookup.com (Comment on this)
1:56 am	And Where Were You All This Time, Young Lady? So I'm not a lurker anymore.. but really I wasn't even that, since until Thanksgiving last week I hadn't even visited my livejournal, nor anyone else's for that matter, for QUITE some time. But things, they are really good. So many things I haven't talked about here. It's just as well - most of you who did read this regularly follow my life on my main site - digitalreflex.net - but for those who happen here now or someday that don't do that, I'll make a quite note on some aspects of life: HEALTH: Got a kidney transplant Feb. 3rd 2004 - been doing well and have my life back LOVE: The last days I did post here things were changing in my life and fittingly so, I've been happily with Dan since then. We officially got back together June 16th (though we kissed on my birthday) and here we are today.. which brings me to LIFE: Dan & I live together, still in Philly. We both graduated school this past May. I've been working at a corporate real estate company since March. I'm their "Director of Research & Marketing" They pay me money and in exchange I pay my bills and eat sometimes. I'm expecting a bonus of maybe some sort with the coming new year. It looks to be a good one, please don't let fate try to be tricky :) It's gotten over that it seems. ;) Now don't get too excited, this doesn't mean I'm here to say.. but I will try to stop by more often. At least to read up on friends from the past. I guess I was feeling rather nosttalgic tonight... but overall like I said - I'm doing ok. Things are well. And I am happy :) Current Mood: nostalgic Current Music: Futurama is just coming on Cartoon Network (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 27th, 2003
4:00 pm	I'll take this one I guess.... Happy Deathday! Your name: Meg Miller You will die on: Friday, January 25, 2036 You will die of: Appendicitis Username: Created by Quill (Comment on this)
3:57 pm	this is a little better... but skin cancer still??? I barely get any sun ever!! Happy Deathday! Your name: Megan Miller You will die on: Sunday, April 14, 2030 You will die of: Skin Cancer Username: Created by Quill (Comment on this)
3:55 pm	that's a little young, don't you think... :( Happy Deathday! Your name: phillywebgirl You will die on: Sunday, August 8, 2010 You will die of: Skin Cancer Username: Created by Quill (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 26th, 2003
1:20 am	believe that some people will not harm your soul and this is how you will still find the end goal (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 22nd, 2003
3:26 am	something There is something strange tonight... not in a bad way and I guess not exactly in a good way either. I'm just in such a thinking mode or something. Turning 21 for starters, that has been good to me though it's not like I've abused it like I could have yet. I've gone out to the bar a couple times, that's about it. But just that feels good. It reminds me I really have grown up... that's a thought on my mind a lot this week and lately in general I suppose. Where did all the time go? I keep thinking back to when we (meaning my friends) were all sophs still - just really getting to know each other (most of them with me) for the first time. It was the time of my life really, all of it - the bad and the good - and oh, I miss it so much. But at the same time I don't want to go back anymore. I used to want nothing more than to relive it all over again, but now I feel like we've all come this far and ended up in the places we are at for a reason. And excuse me for getting so philosophical at 3:30 in the morning. It doesn't help that I just watched a DVD (Moonlight Mile) which only added to me thinking about life... and about love... I'm in a weird place. It's not bad or good, it just is. I believe it could go either way, so I stand on the line once more, just waiting like everybody else to see how it turns out. I'm not sure how others can be so sure about me sometimes when I'm not quite sure what to make of myself. But I promised myself I would no longer run from these matters or from people who are or come into my life. I remain standing until I am knocked off my feet this time - for better or worse. So something needs to keep me going. Something or someone... how will I know when I've found that? I won't. I might not anyway, so I just have to have a little faith... (Comment on this)
1:40 am	livejournal name phillywebgirl Magic Number 11 Job Serial Killer Personality Vicarious Temperament As High As A Very High Kite Sexual Straight Likely To Win A Home Help Badge Me - In A Word Devious Colour Brought to you by MemeJack (Comment on this)
Monday, June 16th, 2003
12:48 am	because I don't fill out surveys enough... right [name] Megan [age] 21 as of three days ago [sex] Female [location] Philadelphia, PA and sometimes Medford, NJ [siblings] One brother, Mike [flirty] hehe you know it [shoe size] usually around 7 or 7 1/2 [hair color] brown [first crush] my neighbor chris when I was really little [latest crush] hehe ;) [color of your room] white walls decorated with posters [righty or lefty] righty [hobbies] design, music, writing, movies, reading, spending time with my friends, soon to be going out more because I can PREFERENCES : [cuddle or make out] it's like jello, there's always room for both ;) [chocolate milk, or hot chocolate) chocolate milk except when it's really cold outside [mcdonalds or burger king] wendys :) [coke or pepsi] coke [would you wanna marry your best friend, or the perfect lover] perfect lover implies best friend in there too because that would be part of what makes them perfect [root beer, or dr pepper] Root Beer [tea/coffee/cappuccino] chai tea [cats or dogs] both [mud or jello wrestling] umm neither thanks [milk, dark, or white chocolate] milk chocolate [sunny or rainy] depends [winter, summer, fall, or spring] spring [vanilla or chocolate] depends on what its flavoring [skiing or boarding] boarding even though i've never done it [do ya like rock, punk, rap, r and b, alternative, techno, pop, or country] I like a lot of music, but rock and alternative is usually what i listen to.. oh and classic rock thanks to emily mostly. [bunk or water bed] water bed [lights on or off] oh that depends too FRIENDS : [My friends] are my life support [Friends that you look like] umm... FAVOURITES : [color] Blue [number] 6 [movie] too many to name, latest addition is Vanilla Sky added to a long list of favorites [subject] english [song] "Don't Look Back In Anger" - Oasis (first favorite song) [sport to play] haven't played in awhile but I like soccer and basketball [sport to watch} hockey if i have to watch something, or basketball but I don't like to watch sports really [favorite drink] a&w cream soda with captain morgan's spiced rum [truth or dare] truth [ocean or pool] pool [love or lust] love with lust [silver or gold] silver defintely [diamonds or pearls] pearls have a special meaning to me, i'm not a huge fan of diamonds but if they accent something pretty then they're cool [sunrise or sunset] sunrise [showers or bubble baths] that depends too MISC. QUESTIONS : [do you like school] sometimes [do you like to talk on the phone] sometimes [do ya have your own phone line] well i have a cell phone & still have my own seperate line at my house in NJ for some reason [can we have your number] oh like i'm going to give that out to the entire internet population [do you like to dance] not according to my track record... but maybe someday [are you scared to ask out your crush] no surprisingly not [do you think cheering is a sport] only if marching band is but i don't think they are in the same category as basketball and hockey just like golf isn't either but still called a sport all the time [Been kissed] yes [Done drugs] just the legal kind and lots of those [Eaten an entire box .of Oreos] not quite [Been on stage] yes and sang solo a few times too [Dumped someone else] yes [Gotten in a car accident] no [Watched "Punky Brewster"] not back then oh and not now either but i was her for halloween last year ;) [Been in love] yes MORE FAVOURITES : [Shampoo] herbal essences [Toothpaste] collgate 2 in 1 [soap] not certain preference [Type of soup] potato soup... oh how I miss you [Room in your house] my room [Instrument] guitar and drums EITHER/OR : [Coffee or hot chocolate] hot chocolate [Big or little] that certainly depends a lot [Lace or satin] satin [New or old] new [Neve Campbell or Jennifer Love Hewitt] you can have them both thanks [Vogue or Material Girl] what? [Jeans or cords] jeans [Sweater or sweatshirt] sweatshirt [T shirt or tank top] tank top [Skirt or dress] dress [Wool or cotton] cotton [Rose or Lily] rose but most flowers are pretty ;) [The way it is or the way it was] the way it was, but how about the way that it will be someday? [Oldies or pop] oldies and not 'too pop' pop SOCIAL QUESTIONS : [Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend] not at the moment [Do you have a best friend] yes In THE PAST TWO DAYS HAVE YOU.. : [cried] yes [Helped someone] i dunno, maybe [Bought something] yep [Gotten sick] no [Gone to the movies] no [Gone out for dinner] not exactly [Said "I love you"] yes [Written a real letter] no do people still do that ;) [Moved on] in a constant state of it yes [Talked to an ex] yes [Missed an ex] yes [Written in a journal] yes [Talked to someone you have a crush on] yes [Had a serious talk] yes [Missed someone] yes [Hugged someone] yes [Fought with parents] little fights come up but nothing big [Fought with a friend] no [Wore eye shadow] yes [Eat with your mouth open] no (what a question to end with...) (Comment on this)
Friday, June 13th, 2003
2:16 am	happy birthday to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woohoo 21!!! :) Current Mood: finally!!! (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 12th, 2003
2:33 am	tomorrow is the first and last day of everything So tomorrow sets off a spark that puts me on a path to life or death... seems like a loaded day, dontcha think? Yet you wouldn't know it, sitting here tonight in the finally cooled down, humid air. I guess the rain played it's part, but oh it was a pretty day at least. Hobbes is at the open window now, batting at the bugs he can't really see in the pitch dark outside through the screen. He doesn't know what role he plays in my life, or anyone else's for that matter, he just is and I think he likes it that way. I guess I would. But I'm not a cat and so instead my mind is filled with much more right now. And I'm tired... in more ways than one. So soon I will sleep and dream myself closer to a long, but hopefully positive day. It's a day I've waited over a year for. It's a day that will decide how the rest of my life goes... and yet I have little control over it right now other than showing up. I think I'll try to go to bed now though. Last night I came home and Jamie tried to get me to go outside with him, to go eat, or just walk, or at least sit on our front step... but I was just too tired and told him so. Even once he got out to the front step I heard him call up and try to get me to come out, but I called back that I was going to take a nap, layed my head down on my pillow, and the next thing I clearly remember is waking up to the semi-darkness of 5:30am. I seem to recall waking up a time or two during the 'night' which was what 11 hours long for me... but never long enough to fully comprehend the fact that I was sleeping both my night AND day away now. Well, at least it wasn't the WHOLE day... I was lucky I woke up when I did, since I didn't set my alarm and I have to wake up at 6am on Wednesdays anyway. But since then I've been awake and that would explain why I'm starting to crash now. And, like I said, I have a long day tomorrow too, so I'd better get a little rest. I just hope it all goes well... and I have good things to tell come tomorrow... just in time for my birthday on Friday :) Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Think Twice - Eve 6 (on the radio) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 9th, 2003
10:46 pm	what class should you teach You Should Teach Dating Etiquette 101! You may not have conquered dating yet, but that's just because you refuse to settle. You know the places to meet guys, as well as conversation starters. You are the ideal flirt - always scoring the most free dinners, drinks, and diamonds. You are perfect at teaching those with bad luck how to date. You'll show women how to juggle men - the old "pair and a spare" strategy. And you'll also show them how to spot a jerk... because you've met lots of them! What's Class Should You Teach? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva Current Mood: content Current Music: Y100 (Comment on this)
4:14 am	sleep should happen but not quite yet So as usual I am still up and I have to GET up in about 2 hours. Why do I do this all the time? I went to the shore today with my best friend and her boyfriend. She didn't end up buying a surf board, but we did look at a bunch of places. We also ate pizza and played mini golf. Fun but tiring day for me since I usually don't do so much in the course of a single day. Plus I only had about 3 1/2 hours of sleep from the night before to run on. I started feeling the tiredness on the car ride home... but yet I came home and worked for a fair part of the rest of my night while also watching Heartbreakers too and eating popcorn. Though it was a successful evening I guess in addition to the decent day because I got some things done that have been waiting to be completed for several days now. Go me! So I came home to NJ yet again this morning around 9:30am. I got pancakes and eggs from McDonalds on the way home with my mom and watched Vanilla Sky finally. OMG, it was the best movie I have seen in a LONG time! Automatically a favorite - I'm sure it'll be joining my DVD collection soon. I love movies that make you think. It had me thinking about it all day too, on and off. Now that's a good movie in my book! So tomorrow is dialysis as usual and then I suppose nothing else planned -- but I still need to get my license renewed. I was hoping to do that tomorrow to get it taken care of but I have a feeling that it's not going to happen until Wednesday (hopefully before my eye exam). So tomorrow's plan is to clean up my room (I had to leave it a mess when I came home) and try to be productive and NOT sleep the day away. By the way, the other day when I last wrote and said a little nap couldn't hurt... yea I did go to sleep and sure enough my alarm didn't go off (I was probably so tired I set it but didn't turn it on or something) so I closed my eyes around 11am and the next thing I know it's 5pm. I HATE it when that happens. Sure, I know I probably needed the sleep, but still, AHHHH... That night I spent the first few of my real waking hours trying to get work done, taking care of little things here and there, but then around 9pm my friend Mike called to invite me to his housewarming party and I knew that getting work done for the night was done right there. I had a good time at his place though, once I got there which wasn't until more like 10:45pm or so because I wanted to take a shower first and it was a little further than I thought it was. It was my first time seeing his place since he just moved there last week. We used to be best friends but really have drifted over the last year. It kind of sucks, but it always makes me feel good to know that we're still friends even though maybe not as close right now. Time changes everything and everyone and there isn't a whole lot you can do about it anyway. Despite all this, I had a good night, was reminded of good old times, and was given a fresh pink rose before the night was over so I couldn't complain ;) Too bad all nights don't end that way. I stayed up a bit after I got home to attempt at conversations online, which happeneded for a little while, but then I finally did go to bed. Which is what I intend to do now too. And remember "with every passing minute there is another chance to turn it all around." :) (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 7th, 2003
9:36 am	rouge router So I finally open my new wireless router. I've been enojying the other one I bought for my parents at their house considering I've been stuck at home in NJ for a bit off and on over the passed few days... it's nice to be able to sit on the couch in my family room and watch tv with my dad yet still be online and such. It makes me feel a little less couch potato and a litlte more productive - regardless if I am actually getting anything productive done online and still understanding the fact that I'm sitting on the couch for hours still. Oh well... but so as I was saying, I just got back to Philly this morning, about an hour ago, and it's still way too early to be up considering I never really went to bed (maybe got an hour if even that because I had a long nap in the middle of the day yesterday) so I'm running low on energy (meaning I have a burst of it that's coming from places it probably shouldn't be) and I decide to install my wireless router here. So I navaigate cables, reroute wires, get everything up and reset and the PC link light isn't lighting up on my modem. Ok, I think it might be the modem itself, maybe something got loose in the rerouting process. So I plug my old router back in and the PC link light lights up just fine. Ok so it's not that. I fool around with the new modem more, but to no avail. I am sure that there is something defective with the port where you plug the cat 5 cable into the router that's coming from the modem... so I need to exchange it. I got it from buy.com - but I don't want to send it all the way back there. Instead I think I will try to exchange it at a store locally, but when am I going to have time to do that?? I suppose I might try to go tonight (when my mom picks me up to go home yet again because my best friend and I keep trying to go to the shore for her so she can get a surf board - so apparently we are really going tomorrow). If I don't do it tonight then I honestly don't know when I will have time for another week. Monday is the only free day I have which will be invaded by usual dialysis and probably a nap... then Tuesday is a meeting with my new Lupus doctor at Jefferson, Wednesday is an eye doctor appointment, and Thursday is the big day - my transplant meeting. I have to get a ton of doctor appointments and check ups before I can get my actual transplant - which I have plenty o time but they recommend you go and get everything out of the way. I had a check up with my "regular" doctor who I rarely see since I get so much medical care otherwise all the time yesterday. There are still plenty of tests and appointsments left before I'm "normal" again... there is a lot left - like finding a donor - but enough about that for now. Friday of course is the BIG day - my 21st birthday - wooho!! The plan for now is dialysis in the morning (obviously) then doing the family thing at home in NJ, then perhaps going to dinner with my parents in Philly to a place I've wanted to go to for awhile, then having a party here in Philly with my friends at night. No matter what it seems like it's going to be a busy day, but I hope it's a fun one too. Crap, I just remembered I still need to get to the DMV at home to get my new license too. Ok, perhaps that will have to happen on Monday or perhaps Wednesday depending on the eye doctor and what time that appt is. Too much to do this week, really. I really need to accomplish a bunch work wise today... but as I said I'm running on false energy right now and I don't know how long it'll last or how much I should push it. I'm tempted to go back to sleep now, but if I do I run the risk of sleeping a good part of this day away and I really can't afford to do that... ahhh well I guess I will figure something out. Perhaps picking up a few hours of sleep couldn't hurt...... Current Mood: tired Current Music: Headstrong - Trapt (on the radio) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 4th, 2003
8:11 pm	stolen from amanda last cigarette: that was a big mistake... but I don't smoke last kiss: answered this too recently last good cry: dealing with life on top of life on top of living last library book checked out: I haven't checked a book out in a long while, but my mom works at the library so she continuously brings home books, many of which I look at especially when she brings them home with me in mind last movie seen: Finding Nemo (twice - on Friday with Jon & Concetta and yesterday when I took my niece Colby) last book read: Emergence by Steven Johnson (still reading it but almost done) last cuss word uttered: fuck last beverage drank: water last food consumed: mac & cheese last crush: i'll take the 5th on that one too last phone call: kristen last tv show watched: the tv is on right now, but my dad is watching baseball (last thing I paid attention to was Jeopardy and Everybody Loves Raymond that was on before this) last time showered: yesterday last shoes worn: my still semi-new grey Vans last cd played: Practical Magic Soundtrack last item bought: popcorn, soda, and candy for Colby at the movies yesterday last thing downloaded: various episodes of season 6 dawson's creek last annoyance: techs and nurses who don't pay attention to problems last disappointment: i don't note nor count them anymore last soda drank: a&w cream soda last thing written: the letter 'a' technically... but real writing a few poems yesterday morning when I couldn't sleep last key used: the key to my place to lock it before I came home to NJ last word spoken: 'oh for a second I thought you said you were going to go to bed' last sleep: too deep of one spaning from last night at 10pm about 5 minutes after I got out of the car and back to my place until 6:15 when my house phone woke me because my alarm never went off and my cell phone was on silence mode so my mom couldn't get ahold of me last sexual fantasy: ok I'm definitely not sharing that with you right now... last weird encounter: can't really think of anything right now last ice cream eaten: some kind called moose-something on a cone from a small local shop while walking to the senior photo show last month with Jon & Concetta last time amused: watching TV with my dad last time wanting to die: I never want to die, I'm immortal last time in love: I'm still in love... just not with anyone... last time hugged: today saying goodbye to my brother last time scolded: but I'm perfect... ;) last time resentful: hmm not sure last chair sat in: the not so comfortable chair at dialysis... but then sat on my brother's couch while I babysat for awhile and am not sitting on my parents loveseat enjoying the fact that I just installed a wireless network in the house yesterday :) last lipstick used: strawberries and cream lip gloss from bonnie bell last underwear worn: black vaninty fair last bra worn: black jockey last shirt worn: green tank top from express last time dancing: umm my prom?? last poster looked at: Bob Marley poster on Emily's side of the room this morning when I woke up in a daze last show attended: Jack Johnson @ the Electric Factory (stupid guards!!!) last web page visited: CVS because my dad wanted to know what it stood for 1 MINUTE AGO: filling out this survey 1 HOUR AGO: watched Everybody Loves Raymond with my dad 1 DAY AGO: hanging around my house in NJ waiting to go back to Philly 1 WEEK AGO: probably trying to be productive after waking up only a few hours before 1 YEAR AGO: still recovering from my time in the hospital and adjusting to life with dialysis I HURT: inside more often than out I LOVE: the ones that matter most (whether they deserve it or not) I HATE: hard times and ignorance I FEAR: rejection and being ignored for no reason I HOPE: to be happy and find someone I deserve I FEEL: tired I HIDE: some feelings when I don't feel they're approperiate I DRIVE: '95 Saturn Coupe I MISS: better times I LEARNED: life is about experience I NEED: better times to come again I THINK: this has gone on long enough CURRENT MUSIC: TV I'm not paying attention to current taste: nothing but I'm a bit thirsty current hair: pulled back current annoyance: the mess I left in my room at my place current smell: nothing current thing I should be doing: working but I can't current desktop picture: blue design windows xp home selection on my laptop current refreshment: bottle of water next to the couch current worry: That the next couple of weeks won't be as great as I hope for them to be 1. What do you most like about your body?: my eyes sometimes 2. And least: my legs 3. How many fillings do you have?: not sure 4. Do you think you're good looking? once in a great while 5. Do other people often tell you that you're good looking?: well i don't know what you consider often, but I suppose I do hear it enough to boost my ego a bit.... did I mention all the people I encounter must be blind? 6. Do you look like any celebrities?: in high school I used to be told Jennifer Love Hewitt once in awhile but I never really saw it and certainly don't now... now I might go for Katie Holmes (Joey on DC) or the girl who played Liz on Roswell... but yeah I wish I were that pretty... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 2nd, 2003
11:20 pm	long survey time Describe your... -room- currently messier than I ever let it get, but not for long... contains my bed, computer, and everything else I own (plus everything on Emily's side too) -kitchen- fairly clean and decent sized, good enough for me since I don't spend too much time in it except at our parties ;) (where everyone hangs out) -bathroom- a little small, but who needs a huge bathroom? it's got all it needs really -pantry- even college kids with townhouses don't have pantrys unless you count those metal wire shelves dan and I found a couple months ago -refrigerator- my side is usually full but yet i never seem to have anything good to eat -pets- 1 cat, hobbes -parents- at home in nj, pretty good with things, raised me well -siblings- 1 brother, mike - 15 yrs older than me & 2 wonderful nieces :) -tv- Sony 27" that's in the basement now since Jamie brought in the huge big screen -radio- aiwa, but i mostly only listen to radio in the car or here I do if Emily and I are both in the room and want a good mix that we both like -living room- big screen tv, two couches, posters, fireplace that we can't use, mini coffee table, oh yea -blinds- brown -roof- umm it's too high for us to get up on so i don't really know what it looks like -fan- white and it's on right now ------------------- Do You... -have a boat?- a small old green paddle boat that i haven't sat in in a good 8 years -have a pool?- a small above ground at home in nj that hasn't been opened for two years -have cable?- yep, digital too -watch mtv?- rarely but sometimes -sleep nude?- no -have a waterbed?- no but my parents do and they don't want it so i think they're going to put it in my room at home when they get a new one -like cookies?- who doesn't? -have DVDs?- yes too many to keep track off (and people keep borrowing them and i don't know who takes what whoops) -like cheese?- yes it's its own food group in my world -have a watch?- yes and wear it always except in the shower -have icq?- was one of early users but don't use it much anymore - 1223232 baby! -sing in the shower?- sometimes -have a cell phone?- yes -keep a photo album?- yes but most recent pics are digital -drink water?- of course -like roller coasters?- some of them, but haven't been on one in a long time -drive?- i haven't in awhile but yes -know what TVU is?- no is it like tivo? -listen to online radio stations?- rarely -send e-mail forwards?- to myself when aol is about to delete them from being in my box too long -like the heat?- yes ------------------------- Food (do you like...) -tacos?- not really vegetarian friendly usually -bread?- yes -veggies?- some kinds -pizza?- yes -doritos?- yes -pretzels?- yes -chocolate?- yes but not too much -garlic?- occassionally -veal?- absolutely not -hamburgers?- no -chicken?- no -hot dogs?- no... do you see a trend here? -ice cream?- yes -hot pockets?- yes four cheese variety please -popcorn?- yes -pop tarts?- yes -salad?- yes -coke?- with rum? ;) -pepsi?- not especially -gatorade?- yea -------------------- Live Journal -How many times do you update your journal?- well there was a period where it was everyday, but now i'm back to posting on my real site and on here still once in awhile -How many hours do you spend on here?- maybe one here and there to update and to read my friend's journals -How does your journal look?- plain using one of the premade layouts cause i'm lazy -How many icons do you have?- a bunch on my couple, three uploaded but i mainly just use one -Can you do any of those cool lj over rides?- uh not really that into it but i suppose i could if i wanted to -Do you have music on your journal?- no -Do you update your journal with font colors?- no not really -How many communities do you belong to?- 6 i believe -Do you remember your very first entry?- yes i said i wasn't going to use lj very often haha -When did you join LJ?- around marchish i think, when i needed to be able to post comments in mary anne's journal and it went from there ;) -How many LJ friends do you have?- a bunch -Is your journal public or friends' only?- public... i understand why some people do friends only but i won't do that to people yet... besides there is no friends only option on my real journal so why incorporate it for myself here? ----------------------------------------------- Have You Ever... -bungee jumped?- no -gotten a tattoo?- no -sky dived?- no -skinny dipped?- no -gotten your tongue stuck to a cold pole?- no -had pop rocks and coke together?- hehe jon e. and i did want to try that once, i don't remember if he ever rocked the coke with it though -played truth or dare?- yes -kissed for more than 10 minutes at one time?- yes -made a prank phone call?- no but been witness to a few -flashed someone?- no -stolen anything?- no officer i'm innocent! -sped?- yea -set anything on fire?- sure -eaten snow?- oh you know you have too -puked on someone you really liked?- haha no but does near them count? -eaten pure sugar?- yep -mixed sodas together?- yes -had sushi?- nope -worn a thong or speedo bathing suit?- speedo one pieces when i was younger -had deja vu?- yes -had deja vu?- just in case anyone tries to say no to you huh? -hung up on someone?- yes but almost never purposely -used all cuss words in a sentence?- without any other words wow that's impressive but no -had the cops called on you?- no -stayed up for more than 24 hrs straight?- yeah -stood on your head and drank milk?- no -cried during a movie?- sure -swallowed gum?- yes but over 7 yrs ago ;) -gotten tongue tied?- yes -said, "I love you" and not meant it?- thought i meant it at the time, won't say it unless i think i do -eaten glue?- no -slept for more than 15 hrs? hmm no but 12 hrs i have -been on a train?- yes ----------------------------- Finish the Sentence -I would like to go: to someplace nice -I want to meet: a boy i can trust -I need: a new kidney so i can get my life back together -more than anything I love: true connections i make with special people -If I won the lottery: i'd save some, spend some, give some away -I love: you people know who you are -I see: the computer screen of course -The last thing I did was: talked to my mom on the phone -The last person I hugged was: Concetta -I yelled at: my mom -The last person I kissed was: Neil.. -I cried when: not long after that -If I could have one pet it would be a: monkeys are cool -Last night: i put up a bunch of stuff on half.com to sell (cause i was bored and home in NJ) -Right now I'm: talking to people on IMs, listening to music, and thinking about what to do next -Love is: a many splendid and confusing thing -I hate: things that hurt -My favorite phrase is: dude! -The last person I saw was: jon and femi -My parents are: pretty good parents -God is: different for everyone -I last ate: pasta with butter and parm. cheese -I'd like to: be happy Current Mood: calm Current Music: Five For Fighting - Easy Tonight (Rocky Alternative Mix) (Comment on this)